Pillows, I always have to have the right one to sleep with, I
have about eight pillows on my bed and only one of them is the perfect fit for
me, when I lay my head down on it, there is a sense of safety and comfort I feel
from it, I usually just lay there for a while and think, I have to give my mind
time to shut down, I usually think about all the things that worry me before I go
to sleep and I always map out how I’m going to fix whatever it is, I do this
every night, usually it’s the same issues, but every night I will contemplate what
I’m going to do until I think of something that calms me down enough to sleep. I
always hope for good dreams, but I also don’t like having really good dreams,
because when I wake up the realization that there not real, slaps me in the
face. I’ve woken up from a good dream before with my dad or my grandparents in
it, and cried, dreams play with your head, they give you illusions of things
that don’t exist, and I’m not emotionally strong enough to see my loved ones in
my dreams that aren’t here anymore and then wake up and be ok. Lately I haven’t
been remembering my dreams, I think it’s kind of weird, but I think it’s for
that reason, I might be having dreams of them I just don’t remember them when I
wake up because it hurts. It’s crazy how much power feelings have over you,
that you can feel them while you’re sleeping.
I need 3 pillows to sleep, and they have to be arranged just so...
ReplyDeleteI, too, have WAY more pillows on my bed than one person needs but there's just something comforting about being surrounded by them : )
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